Hi Everyone! TGIF folks! You know what I'm sayin? I'm soo glad it's Friday and unless you're crazy (or have to work over the weekend) you should be too!
Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking about my life. Which, I feel like must be in the air because one of my fellow bloggers recently had a post in which she was very introspective also. She is really talented, so I would recommend visiting her blog when you get a chance. (Yeah, I totally put 2 links to her blog in one sentence. So, what are you going to do about it? Huh?)
Anyways, I, myself, have been very introspective lately as well. The one thought that my mind keeps settling on is that I'm too nice. This may be a strange concept to some as I have not always been this way. In fact, in my early years I was really selfish. I remember being one of those types that used to wait for others to stop talking so I could talk about myself, not listening really to what they were saying at all along the way. I remember not valuing people and my relationships with them as much as I should have. I also remember feeling alone a lot (most likely because of my own actions and lack of real effort with others). The other thing I remember is that I wasn't happy. I had some very serious situations at home that I was dealing with that, now that I look back on them, realize that they contributed to me being emotionally non-existent/shutdown for a large portion of my youth. So, in short, if you were one of the people that experienced me this way, let me just say, I'm sorry to you. Looking back I realize how lucky I was to even have any of my friends and family around me (and putting up with me) during that time.
While I feel very different now than I did when I was younger, I still feel I have a lot of room for improvement (don't we all?). I also am extremely thankful for every experience I went through as I feel without such experiences I wouldn't have realized how much potential I had (and still have) to change for the better.
Any who, I digress....so, back to my original reason for this post: I'm too nice and feel like I get taken advantage of because of it sometimes. I've decided that I need to be a little more assertive. However, this is going to be really hard for me. In my adulthood I've developed an easygoingness that results in me doing things that sometimes I would not prefer doing just because I don't want to ruffle anyone's feathers. Don't get me wrong, most of the time I really have no issues with doing what others want to, but on rare occasion I do and, from here on out - I'm going to try to speak up about it when such an occasion arises. Or in other words, "I'mma Be" more assertive (you can imagine me dancing to that song at this point because I have a home office and I actually may be dancing).
Also, I have included a picture from Binderclips' and my wedding reception below to help you in imagining me dancing (you may be asking yourself if the picture was necessary and after you see it, I'm certain you will agree that it was). I believe I was dancing to thriller at this point, but you get the idea. Oh, and yeah I'm not going to provide any other explanation for this picture -I'll leave that up to your imagination. All I'm going to say is we have A LOT of pictures equally as entertaining as this one from our reception. Good times folks! Good times! Have a great weekend everyone.
6 months ago